I read this article in TIME and while it was the stupidest thing I have seen in a long time, it did make me think about a few things. The article basically aims to debunk the "hCG diet" in which you are given hCG, the hormone that makes your pregnancy test turn positive and it somehow makes you lose weight. The article clealry shows how the so-called study basically proves nothing, and that the calorie reduction used in the study will eventually cause a rebound effect and make you gain. Once I had read this tidbit, the brain wheels were a churning.
First I realized that this would work for me. The fake early pregnancy would send me into a tailspin of debilitating nausea and vomiting so yeah, that weight would peel right off. Of course, there is another name for this system, it is called bulimia, and it is definitely not awesome. Now I was thinking about how I did lose a ton of weight being pregnant, but how it call came right back, with a bonus ten pounds per pregnancy and I realized that I was doing the classic post-starvation diet thing where in response to having way too few calories for so long, your body has a field day and packs away pretty much everything you eat as fat. Aha!
So this leaves me in a bit of pickle. I inadvertently spent over a year being "bulimic," or more precisely I spent two sets of roughly 35 weeks being on a starvation diet...a starvation diet split between two people. This is no excuse for my weight being what it is, but it does shed some light on why losing "the baby weight" just never seemed to click and why my "baby weight" actually packed on rapidly during the 6 months postpartum.
This is all pseudo-science, and probably all in my head, but I think it is an important part of this puzzle that is me getting my body healthy. When I am fighting for half pound losses each week, I need to realize that my metabolism may still be pretty shredded and that those half pounds really do mean a lot to my long-term weight goals.
On the upside I am getting thisclose to my 15 pound mark and generally my healthy goals are going well. I still lost a pound even during the week we went to NY for the weekend and I did not even record my points. This means that my metabolism is getting better and/or that I am just getting much better at being able to make healthy choices even when I am not paying as close attention as I should be. I also hit a milestone in that I can now run at 5 mph on the treadmill. Not for more than 2 minutes thus far, and that is not really "fast," but still pretty good for a girl who 9 weeks ago was winded after 30 seconds at 3.5 mph.
Mostly, I am just amazed at how much I have learned about food, about working out and, perhaps most importantly, about what works for me. Now I just need to keep on keeping on...and keeping it off.