- I am not into the hipster fad of Paleo. I don't think that modern food is the devil. I don't think that grain carbs are bad for you. I honestly do not care what tribal man would have done. Tribal man only lived to see 30 (if tribal man was lucky) and tribal momma lost 90% of her young in the first year. So, just, you know, some perspective.
- Grain carbs and I need to break-up because I have a problem eating them in a responsible manner. I suspect that this is linked my history of depression. My body has generally done a piss-poor job regulating its use of various body chemicals so the fact that it totally overreacts with happiness when confronted with cake is not a shock. A bitter disappointment, but not a shock. Granted this is all pseudo-science, but I kind of know in my gut (pun possibly intended) that the two are related and that cold-turkey may be the only way to go.
So what am I to do? I probably can't have the body I want if I don't lay off the grain carbs. I have to quit them, not just "lay off them" because well, I am wired WAY wrong. But, I can't train the way I want to if I don't eat some carbs to stave off the light-headed-puke-fest that running can be if you are not properly fueled.
Looks like I have come to a real crossroads where I finally have to chose, once and for all, between getting as fit as I want (a half-marathon has a nice ring to it) and looking the way I want (is being a size 10 too much to ask?)...basically I hate this. I should be grateful that this is my biggest worry right now (see item #1 re: hipster BS), but I am not. Actually I am totally bumming and thus, really want a cupcake. Blergh.